why I’ve been quite so long: bua mak mak ! :)
What is “real”? How do you define “real”?
If real is what you can feel, smell, taste and see, then ‘real’ is simply electrical signals interpreted by your brain… Your mind makes it real… You have the look of a man who accepts what he sees because he is expecting to wake up. Ironically, that’s not far from the truth… You’ve been living in a dream world… the world that has been pulled over your eyes to blind you from the truth…
Death can come for us at any time in any place…
Welcome to the desert of the real
– Morpheus (The Matrix trilogy)
I was asked – why I’ve been quite lately. well, alright here it goes …
I’ve been quite for a while and thought I won’t be missed much anyway, or my absence from active participation in “Kokosphere” even noticed.
but it looks like some people at least do notice. and one old buddy Nganadeeleg (aka Hobby – see his blog by clicking on his name)
has dropped me a small comment, asking about what’s up with me lately:
You have been very quiet – Hope alls well, and they haven’t locked you up.
so, I thought that he is right – I should write some explanation about my silence / absence. actually I’ve considered doing it already for a while – I guess I was lazy (unlike some very dedicated bloggers as BP, Fonzi and others – who are very committed to their cause and keep posting). and I’ve decided to make my answer to him as a separate post here to make it more visible for others as well – whoever might be interested, if at all. 🙂
so, yeah – comparing to my active posting and commenting on other blogs previously – this my silence is strange indeed.
there reasons were / are several (I don’t know which one is dominant):
1) VERY bored (with Thai politics);
2) lazy (maintaining one’s own blog requires certain amount of efforts – much more than even commenting on others’ blogs );
3) busy (blogging takes a lot of time – which is naturally taken away from other IMPORTANT things, as work, business, family matters etc.)
4) perhaps some degree of apathy or indifference (or shall we call it WTF-ness? 🙂 ) : in the sense that anyway it doesn’t matter much or at all what we write in our blogs.
5) priorities? I mean: focus shift to some other matters, or going on other levels / dimensions?
and finally last, but not the least :
6) lack of “internet time” (or computer access) – due to my dear spouse becoming increasingly internet addict
and forums/ blogs junkie as I was ! 🙂 (or still am? I wonder)
so, nobody locked me up -I have more like “locked up” myself. (<b>clarification</b>: it has nothing to do with “self-censorship”.
although I do confess : I DO practice it a lot. but then – aren’t we all ? 😉 )
or perhaps rather “UNlocked” ? in the sense that I sort of went to an another dimension(s) : instead of being focused merely on one level (of superficial observation and smacking Thai politicians – who are mostly a front only, a figure-heads and puppets anyway), I have sort of “transcended” it and gone further, deeper (or rather higher?) and to a bigger scale as regional, even global, as well as in terms of not only space (geographical and geopolitical borders and boundaries).
also “another dimension” in terms of TIME vector: in other words, trying to grasp the reality (or what we perceive as such or merely think it is – well, that’s another whole HUGE separate subject…). so, I mean – the whole development of NOT ONLY a bunch of people who calls themselves “Thais” at VERY TINY limited and insignificant period of time even in comparison to human History (what to speak in terms of a planet, galaxy, universe …), as well as pretty small if not tiny country (well, there are tinier – as even Singapore, or Monako, etc) on the globe – which is just 1 relatively tiny planet in one of not even medium size galaxies …
do you get my meaning ? 🙂
also, yet another dimension in terms of … spirituality or “metaphysical” reality, or even more or less physical but more like quantum mechanics and yet even deeper: all those tinier particles to the very core and essence of our own existence as well as of all this whole holographic phantasmagoria which is floating around us as colorful kaleidoscope, blinding and hypnotizing us with its great ILLUSION, luring us into such TRIVIAL and laughable (from the point of true reality of SELF)matters of such things as POLITICS and thus diverting us away from proper self-realization into some shite of focusing on some things which do NOT matter anyway for us on both individual level (since we are rather spirit, consciousness – if in uncontaminated / unconditioned state) and on social level of inter-connection and interaction with other people (since anyway we have no any control over things which REALLY going on, and only might THINK that we somehow influence them – as all the politics on the surface, or especially all the gigantic manipulation – on deeper levels)
sometimes I guess I get too bored with all the politics in general, and with Thai politics in particular. you know, as saying goes: ‘same sh1t – another day’.
I mean, seriously and frankly honestly looking at all the stuff going on here:
some bunch of politicians are playing to the tune of their masters – puppeteers, those who pull the strings behind the curtains. and yet even those oh so hidden puppeteers (as all the army, elite, rich in Thailand – “amartayathipathai“) in their own turn are also pulled by other strings of an actually well concealed puppeteers, even if they do not even realize it.
and of course all the MEDIA (especially Thai MSM – newspapers, TV, etc) and even “alternative media” (all the “Kokosphere” : all Thai blogs, forums etc) are also gleefully and furiously engage into this whole BS of a giant cover-up. or as Morpheus told Neo : “the world that has been pulled over your eyes to blind you from the truth”
so, I knew all this stuff about real/ unreal already quite for a while (say, 20+ years). in fact for large chunk of my life (as 10-15 years) I have not bothered even watching TV or reading news – and somehow never felt like deprived of something essential ! LOL 🙂
but I guess once in a while I get sort of carried away from my main status of passive observer (or total indifference) into this whole sh1t of political intrigues, propaganda, logical fallacies exchange, blatant BS, shameless lies etc etc – and then I start to participate in one or other (often several) Forums, blogs etc. and my last such deviation has gone as far as starting this whole my own blog – hahaha !
but then the nature of it is – the longer you participate, the deeper you are tended to dig in order to try uncover all the “real” players and string-pullers.
and of course – the more you do that, the more you come to face the actual REALITY:
that all this is just one huge elaborate illusion, Frankenstein-like Hodge-podge jumble of a tremendous bewildering scenario played all around us;
while the actual processes which better define THE REALITY are well hidden and often simply beyond our grasp or comprehension.
and so it goes, in cycles : sometimes I get bored with politics, then after a while get sucked into them again
(well, on merely hobby level – as a discussant only, not an actual participant in any political events or movements or member of any groups).
I guess it happens so because I am still unable to transcend this illusory lure, and even though I do realize all its illusory BS and waste of time and energy to focus on it – somehow I am still unable to fix myself on higher level of different realm, where there is better vision of actual things and what DOES matter for each of us as an individual and for the humanity and planet whole.
so, I guess now I’ll come back out of my slumber for another “season” of blogging and make a few posts again.
Cheers ! 🙂